As you’re well aware, I recently made yet another move in a very short period of time and found myself back in Seattle after my brief stint in Los Angeles. I recently went to a week long team meeting for my new job and came out of it feeling…relatively lost which I don’t think was the intent of the meeting.
It’s funny because ever since I was a kid, I’ve always said the same things about what I look for in a job.
- I don’t want to live pay check to pay check. I don’t have to be the richest person in the world, but I want to be able to live my life without worrying if I can pay my bills and eat food.
- I want to be challenged in whatever job I take. I don’t want to feel like I am stagnant in my skills and what I do in my day to day life at work. This also means that I am constantly learning and constantly moving forward regardless of the industry or job role.
- I want to be happy. I want to make sure that I do not dread going into work and that even if the industry is not my passion, I enjoy the environment and what I am doing.
Outside of that, my requirements are not that difficult. For whatever reason, I have set a much higher bar for my new role and it’s funny to see that I did that. I think it’s because people have said that the company I work has high expectations for their employees and they have high expectations on how people work. I have a job that allows me to live my life without worrying about my bills, I am challenged and consistently learning and I work with a bunch of amazing people in an office environment that isn’t stifling.
But I sat in a week long meeting this week and left it wondering whether I had made the right choice in deciding to leave my previous job for this one. I mean, let’s be honest, my previous job was less than ideal and I was consistently placed in a position where I was concerned that my reputation with my external counterparts was always in jeopardy. I had a hard time having to answer phone calls and give the same answer over and over again because I didn’t have visibility of what was happening. But, I worked with people I adored and people who supported me in a way that I never thought possible.
At my new job, I have it but to a different extent. I think my expectations have gone almost to the point of unattainable based off my previous job and now I’m wondering if I made the right decision. I’m not entirely sure what to do or how to approach this current situation. It’s weird because I never had this doubt in my previous job or any job for that matter. And now, I am having these doubts about a company I’ve actually interviewed for multiple times which I thought it would mean this was meant to be.
I guess it’s time to figure out what would make me happy and if there’s anyway to make this better.