Sometimes when I feel pressured or overwhelmed, I find myself going into a funk. Not necessarily a funk that makes me unproductive but more like a funk that generates a negative attitude. I recently had a conversation with some friends regarding how it’s so easy to be negative all the time and that it feels like it takes a lot less energy to have a negative outlook on life. I constantly tell people that I am “realistic” and not negative, that I set really low expectations so that I’m always pleasantly surprised and never disappointed. Lately, I feel like I’ve recognized that it works for me and it doesn’t necessarily make me feel like I’m being negative but rather I’m okay with what happens and I’m okay with finding the positives in whatever situation, even if it ends up being a poor outcome.
Over the last couple of days, and maybe even week, I have felt increasingly overwhelmed with work. I’m not sure if it’s because work is picking up or because now that I no longer have school, my mind can spend more time festering on everything. Regardless of the reason, I feel like my work life is in turmoil and not just personally but the entire organization. This scares me a lot and especially as we bring new people onto the team, it makes it very difficult to convince people that “hey, things really aren’t that bad.”
This weekend, I’ve found myself reflecting on this new found feeling of turmoil and I’m wondering what I can do to make it better. What do I need to do to make the environment better for me and better for my teammates? Why are we in turmoil? And how do I keep a positive attitude for people around me? How do I make my positive attitude contagious and help others realize that things really aren’t as bad as we think.
I think this is probably one of the more adult thought processes I’ve had in awhile. I say this because it’s been a long time coming, and I feel like when I was younger, I would take on the defeated attitude and tell myself that it’s fine. People can fend for themselves and we’ll all just be negative together. I mean, what can I do? I’m just one person. But as an adult, sometimes it’s up to you to lead by example or at least figure out ways to make your situation better and hope that it helps others see that there’s a chance for something much more positive.
Today, I feel inspired. I feel inspired to take control and find a way to find a positive outlook on everything.
Note: this act of adulthood has been quickly outweighed by the fact that I stupidly placed a giant watermelon in my trunk without anything to barricade it. I drove home listening to it bulldoze over all of my groceries every time I accelerated, turned, slowed down and stopped. I opened up my trunk when I got home and saw what could only be described as a grocery graveyard. I’m in the process of consuming all the bulldozed food today so that it doesn’t go to waste because, I spent hard earned money on it. Who cares if I get a mild stomachache or if it looks like I threw it out a window.
Here’s to positive thinking and excessive amounts of food due to poor decisions.